Lessons We Learn From the Homosexual: Need

Growing up as a homosexual Christian, there was one thing I could never deny: My need. I needed God. I needed healing. I needed a break. I needed love. I needed something! I was intimately aware of my need. I was powerless, broken, wrong, a million things but never self-sufficient. And most of the time, that's all I knew.

Those who are broken in obvious and consuming ways (such as same-sex attraction) cannot help but feel their need. In the climate of today's church, that can be felt or construed as weakness, godlessness, or being unclean. Our churches can project a belief that we should be forever victorious. After all, "The Lord is my shepherd. I shall not want." But shall I need?

Why don't we look at some more of David's Psalms:

"But I am poor and needy: make haste unto me, O God: thou art my help and my deliverer; O LORD, make no tarrying." (Psalm 70:5 KJV)

"For innumerable evils have compassed me about: mine iniquities have taken hold upon me, so that I am not able to look up; they are more than the hairs of mine head: therefore my heart faileth me...I am poor and needy " (Psalm 40:12,17)

"Bow down thine ear, O LORD, hear me: for I am poor and needy." (Psalm 86:1)

"For I am poor and needy, and my heart is wounded within me. I am gone like the shadow when it declineth: I am tossed up and down as the locust. My knees are weak through fasting; and my flesh faileth of fatness." (Psalm 109:22-24)

Every one of us must turn and face the fact that we are in deep Need! We are called to weep and lament over our sin. We know that none is righteous. Those of us who smell the tulips know that we are, in fact, Totally Depraved™. We cannot expect God to heal us, refine us, or use us until we admit to Him our need.

I, as a homosexual teenager, had no more need than you do right now. You are needy, broken, dropping flesh everywhere you turn. Your eyes are wasted away within your head, and your bones are weak within you. Fall down (it is all you can do) at the foot (feet) of the throne that is also a cross, and spit up your need. He is waiting to take it.